What I Hate, That I Do…
There was a time when Monday through Friday the clock would strike 3:15pm and the internal “alarm” would sound, the clock would be reviewed to confirm the time and the mind would send signals to the heart – “only two hours to go”. The mind already knew that at 5:15pm the seat at the bar would be filled, along with the pint, and once again the evening would be filled with the same mental fight, the same mental argument and the same, the same, the same, always the same. The enemy would dictate the mental conversation and the heart would stand-down.
For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. ~Romans 7:14-15 NKJV
This is how life unfolds when sin is the rule. Getting out of the trap, of our own making, can be more of a challenge than most people can grasp. It is not by our ability, our will or our understanding. It is only by our submission and 100% surrender that breaks the chains of sin. It is through confession – being honest before God – and redemption – God saving us through His mercy and grace.
When we lie to God we are merely lying to ourselves as He already knows it’s a lie, so, why even bother? As the lies have been wiped clean over the past, today, as some untruth attempts to make it’s way to the surface there is a physical change that can be felt. This makes it far easier to call on the name of Jesus Christ for strength, wisdom and courage to change course and get back to reality.
Either the Gospel is divine inspiration, the Word of God teaching us how to live and how to act, or it’s nothing more than a historical account of events.