While I was still crazy and attempting to live without God I don’t believe I ever turned to Jesus and mocked Him. I may have, and time has erased the memory, but I have searched on a number of occasions and come up empty every time. I pray that I never reviled Jesus Christ but if I did, I pray for forgiveness and turn to Jesus Christ to make my amends.
Just before my life changed, God through the Holy Spirit, sent a number of angels to me and tried desperately to get me to see the miracles He was performing in my life. Being as arrogant as I was I would have nothing of this and refused to see. While in hindsight the miracles were as clear as the words on this screen. They were in fact miracles and couldn’t have been anything other than Supernatural. The fact that I was able to drive home, in a 100% black out, didn’t kill myself, nor anyone else, is a bonafide miracle in itself. No serious wrecks, no injuries and hundreds of times this happened during the 25 years of turning my back on Jesus Christ and “living” with addiction. This is one example of not seeing a miracle being performed in your own life and it is the one way the Holy Spirit entered my life, got my attention and brought me home.
Mark 15 NKJV
27 With Him they also crucified two robbers, one on His right and the other on His left.
28 So the Scripture was fulfilled which says, “And He was numbered with the transgressors.”
29 And those who passed by blasphemed Him, wagging their heads and saying, “Aha! You who destroy the temple and build it in three days,
30 save Yourself, and come down from the cross!”
31 Likewise the chief priests also, mocking among themselves with the scribes, said, “He saved others; Himself He cannot save.
32 Let the Christ, the King of Israel, descend now from the cross, that we may see and believe.”
Even those who were crucified with Him reviled Him.